It is been a few days of tough decision making...

Some people say 'Do what you like' or 'Go for your dreams'..
Yet others tell of facing reality in life.

It comes down to balancing both and coming to a decision.
That's the hard part.

My interest vs my course degree
My dream vs people's expectation
Freedom vs financial issues
Malacca convenience vs outstation learning opportunities
Duty and responsibilities of a son vs my own aspiration.

The list goes on.And they are interconnected in a complicated kind of way,making it into a complicated situation.

I am average in my engineering studies.
I do not have the interest in it.
I wish I had.
I wish I had at least better results.

Most of all,I wish I had a clearer goal of what I want to do in life. When I see friends who seems so sure of what they are set to do, it makes me feel left behind.Sort of.
But the fact is...I am still not sure of my career path. And I do not have the luxury of time and money,for that matter to slowly wait and think and ponder of this.

I wish I could have your support.

I had so many other things to think and consider of, sometimes I wish half of these factors that tie me down could just dissapear.

I really need to trust in You.
It's not easy.Honestly not an easy task at all.

*** Thanks to..

My bro. Helping me in every way that he could. I am so grateful for that.

Wins.. For your lending ears...you had been a constant encouragement giving your views,advice and all for these past 2 weeks.All the best in your future career choice too.

Jason, thanks for being there sincerely listening to my problems.Also thanks for your prayers.I really really appreciate it man.

Sam and Billy, I can always count on them for lunch & dinner.Good fellowship heals the soul sometimes. Thanks for some of the advice too, even though I don't think you realize that you had given them. :)

V.J and Kok Wei. We didn't play pool since like about 2 months ago. I was kinda down when V.J asked me out last Sunday night. It turns out great.
I did not have to wallow in sorrow alone. Their cheerfulness spread a little to me :)

***

Sometimes I feel I had let certain people down.

Worse, I feel that I had let myself down. 'Could have done better',I always tell myself.

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Jason Leong, Happy B'day to you. :P
Didn't go for your surprise party cos apparently we the graduates were forgotten to be asked to go.Haha :)

Also,to Stefanie..Happy Belated 21st B'day.Enjoyed the party.Fun's over.Happy Working.Ahaks :)
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It's 4 am now. Time to sleep.

Outz.