I have my last hour or so before I resign to sleep for the day.
And tomorrow: It's back to work.
Just like that,2 days of the precious Hari Raya holidays are gone.
With me being on and off sick during this time,I didn't get to do pretty much stuff during this break.

Feeling a little 'empty' right now.
I dunno.
Maybe it's work tomorow, definitely it's part of it.
Work's okie by the way, just feeling 'lemah' going to work...

Maybe it's something else too...
Personal questions I had yet to be answered.
Issues in my life yet to be dealt with.
Everytime I had this feeling, I know it's more than just mere emotions.
Got to be something deeper inside that I need to search,to deal with...

It got me thinking:
If I had lost everything I posses...
Would I still follow Him?

If I would to lose all I had:
-My money
-My job
-My family
-My soul-mate (If ever I have one in the future)
-My friends
-My physical abilites
-My hobbies & passion
-My belongings

If I had lost all that matter to me:
Would I still choose to trust in Him?
To follow Him?
To serve Him still as my King?

And truthfully,I know I cannot answer these questions...
Many of this things I had listed above are important to me
I realized I had clinged on them to give me a 'purpose' to live.
I had depended on them somehow for my dosages of 'hapiness'

Yet,I know I had to build my foundation in Him.
To find and place a strong inner joy within my heart that's unshakeable by physical materials & surroundings.
And that joy come only come from Jesus.
I want to wake up having this kind of joy...

I am trying.I am learning.I am seeking...

Enough said...
Hope this doesn't sound 'emo' or preachy ...
Just some of my personal thoughts I would like to share :)

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Moving on to a lighter mood...
I would like to wish a happy belated birthday to a friend whose birthday falls on the 23rd of this month.

WIN NEE. *Applause* :)

Hope you had wonderful birthday with your loved ones in Penang.
Come to think of it, I never had the chance to celebrate your birthday with the rest of the gang during the 5 years in Uni ~~
How come ar? hehe..

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Wanted to write more here...but I don't know how to put my thoughts in words.
More like my thoughts are rather disorganized right now.
Feeling a little 'emo' too ...I shall not write more. Haha.

That's all for now I guess

Good nite everybody~